the only new thing about ququ is his name, ququ.
muahahahs.. that's what my dad said at dinner last night. hahas.. that was funny, especially when that was e name given to him by me. hahahs..
my mom asked why both ken n i seem to be always quarreling. lulalalu.. but. but. but. do we? hahas..
i'm looking forward the to the day when i can look in the eyes of those people who once hurt me in any ways. (: that's when i truely forgive and forget them.

wouldyoujazzwithmeat
4:11 PM

i m not drunk right now. i dont get it, i wasnt at all drunk that day lo!!! stanley jessica! it was jus some sparkling juice which helped in my ulcers. hahas.. i didn act drunk or what too. hahas..
papers r coming. n focusing!

p.s. i passed my basic theory test! (:

wouldyoujazzwithmeat
3:21 AM

i am not making any decision to believe who or whoever. i think it has all passed over and should be passed over already. so its my cue to forget it.

wouldyoujazzwithmeat
3:15 AM

at last, i've chatted with ken that guy. things didn exactly become clearer or what. i still dont know to believe him or my friends. but those things i've heard r truely hurting. so i just cant bring myself to be the same as before with him. i told him that he is out of my life already. oh wells.

i have many people loving me, new and old people in my life. god has given me so many loving people in exchange for the hurt. thank you lord.

i'm missing wei qiang lots!! my ever-ly loving cute ass cousin. hahas..

wouldyoujazzwithmeat
2:15 AM

=) i've been laughing much the past days, hahas.. cos its that time of the month. high high high. lulalalu.. =D

wouldyoujazzwithmeat
9:56 PM

i briefly told my dad what ken did to me. he asked, "then didn u comfront him? its not like you to not to confront that person abt it and talk abt it"
bcos i hate the feeling of uncleared stuffs. but i dont know, should i even find ken to have a talk about it? if i dont, maybe he will go on doing it again to others and thinking that its nothing wrong abt it. but whenever i see his face, i get so --sian--.

...

went to see my aunt at the hospital. i dont know what happened or what, but i think its the same case as the last time round. we have this serious problem in our family. whenever we get headache flu or any, we thot popping a few pills will get them over, if a few doesnt work, more would. so i think its overdose for her.
i used to be like that, n i got into an incident with panadols. dad no longer allowed me to buy panadols and i m still learning to stop relying on them.

..

i'm gonna get busy soon, i so wanna meet up with fish sher jialu magg n evan!
i miss them.

wouldyoujazzwithmeat
4:25 AM

wth. wth. wth.
**growls**
my dress!!!! was stolen this morning! agrr.. jus less than an hour. then its gone.
sian-ed. made me giving up in making my own dresses already. no mood already. agrrr..

but my dad's giving me all the support he's able to provide.


p.s.: yuan!! i'm waitin for my stories!

wouldyoujazzwithmeat
7:29 PM

North Node of the Moon in Pisces
In a prior life you clung to rationality -- to distinct divisions between right and wrong, moral and immoral. You had clearly defined values in love and refused to step over the lines you drew, or to accept others' infractions of the rules you had set. You made a reliable and fair but rather unemotional and unforgiving lover.

In your current life, you are finding that things are not nearly so cut-and-dried as you would wish. You might have some fine ideals about the way that love should be; you might believe you fight fairly with your lover, and feel disappointed when your lover resorts to emotional appeals rather than sticking to logic and the facts.

You might feel as though you've thought long and hard about what you believe in, about the way things should be, and you've upheld your end of the bargain, so to speak; but still, your love affairs keep going wrong in ways that surprise or confuse you. Perhaps you have had to deal with romantic partners who were unfaithful or otherwise untrustworthy, and you have had trouble figuring out not only how they could conduct themselves in such ways, but also how you could have attracted such people to you.

wouldyoujazzwithmeat
11:00 AM

in the past, whenever someone asked me whether i would prefer sunset or rise, i would say," no preference as they'r both beautiful."
but now, i would still say they'r both beautiful, however, sunset's more meaningful.
sunset marks the coming end of a day, all bad things would be gone with the day, and a new day's approaching. a new day is like a new chance coming. i would learn n try my very hard to hold onto my beliefs, many things happened, making me let loose of them and also losing myself.
if i want others to believe in me and also, to respect me, i must do so myself 1st.

i'm gonna move house soon. so today i wanted to go to the playground to view the nightsky again. but there was a funeral there, so i jus went back home instead. jus hope that my new place would have a playground or any for me to view the night-sky. it's the best companion for thots.

i've been a good girl recently, going home n no more outings, going to bed early. its nice actually.
=)

wouldyoujazzwithmeat
3:22 AM

the weather hasnt been good. many people ard me, r falling sick, sore throat, fever, cough, flu n many more. take care guys. i dont wan any thing to happen u u all. best remedy of all times, drink HONEY WATER! lulalalu.. hahas..
n oh ya. stupid mark! gave us only 10% when he said giving us 30%. liar liar.

p.s. sam:: i'm no siant, i need time to forgive n forget.

wouldyoujazzwithmeat
10:13 AM

lets see, i went to ps pm afr so long long time. hahas.. mark got a new hair style. now i know why we've got so much discount plus extra dessert. sorry but i don wanna work in f&b already. hahas..

looking on. laters!

wouldyoujazzwithmeat
1:40 AM

"I've been tagged!"

Rules:
#1. Do the following without complaints.
#2. Choose 5 people to do this after you completed yours.
#3. Leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say he/she has been tagged.
#4. Start your post with "I've been tagged!" before you start this.

*Your 10 favourites.
Favourite color: Purple, BROWN, black, white, green, pink.
Favourite food: Tons, except onions.
Favourite song: I don't wanna miss a thing.
Favourite movie: Armageddon.
Favourite book: None, but i do love reading. (:
Favourite season: Cloudy.
Favourite day of the week: No particular actually, because its always a week to the next.
Favourite ice cream flavour: Double Choc-Chips, actually alot, as long as its benjerry's.
Favourite subject: Maths, Bio and Art.
Favourite person: Alot actually, but in short to say, those who treasure me and love me for me.

*9 Currents.
Current mood: Teary.
Current taste: Mint, chewing gums now.
Current clothes: Cut-off shorts, brown hangers shirt, headband.
Current desktop: I'm currently using the dining table, i do not have a work-table.
Current toenail color: Purple
Current time: 2.30am.
Current surroundings: Cosy, with hints of wind.
Current annoyance(s): With myself of thinking so much.
Current thought: Of my conversation with sam.

*8 Firsts.
First best friend: Lynette.
First boy-friend: Shawn.
First crush: That boy in kinderworld.
First movie: I can't remember.
First piercing: On my ears.
First lie: When i told james that i like him no longer.
First music: I guess its the thumping of my own heart in my mom's womb.
First car: I don't think i will own any, because i don't even wanna be in the driver's seat.

*7 Lasts.
Last cigarette: I don't smoke.
Last drink: HL milk.
Last car ride: My mom's car.
Last crush: That guy in 1st yr of poly, i only saw him once n cant rembr the way he looks now, but still rember him as the only cute guy in poly.
Last movie seen: Cars.
Last phone call: My sister.
Last CD played: Some DVDs.

*6 Have you evers.
Have you ever dated one of your best friends: Hmmm... we were together n in which he became my best fren cum best bf. so?
Have you ever broken the law: Hmmmm.. i guess so, but its not really so serious that some officers would even close 1 eye.
Have you ever been arrested: Nope.
Have you ever skinny dipped: Nope.
Have you ever been on TV: Yupps.
Have you ever been kissed someone you didnt know?: Yes, it was that matured young boy at my aunt's place. he taught me french-kiss. :)

*5 Things you're wearing: Shirt, shorts, bra, thongs, headband.
*4 Things you have done today: Watched DVD, helped jess with the hamster's stuff[but didnt do much], thot much, thot of sam's advices.
*3 Things you can hear right now: My fingers exercising on the laptop keys, the fan, the wind.
*2 Things you cant live without: Those people who loved me, my memories. [they make me continue walking.]
*1 thing you do when you're bored: Find someone to kill my boredom.

Lastly, five people to be tagged by me..
1. Felicia
2. Sheralyn
3. Emily
4. Jessica
5. Benjamin

wouldyoujazzwithmeat
2:26 AM

back from jess's place. watched some dvds. hahas.. thots came to my mind on the bus. lone rides always always make me think much. tears can come so easily, whether its a touchin show or a comedy. stress can jus b released by crying. hahas..

advices always on my mind:
- he was the one who did bad to u, so u shouldn't b the one who felt hurt, he should be the one feeling bad.
- you should feel thankful towards him for letting you go, this way, u can go on ur way to looking for ur perfect bf.
- you should b thankful towards him, so that u'll have a clearer view of ur ideal bf, of what characteristics ur ideal bf SHOULD NOT have.
- there will certainly be someone who would hurt you intentionally, but there's also certainly someone who would heal you and also feeling hurt bcos of the hurt u'v felt.

wouldyoujazzwithmeat
2:01 AM