i have my own credit card! :] that's stanley card. .. heex..

i'm going to start getting busy meeting up with frens, having driving practical[hoping to finish all asap.] , watching vcds that i'm so gonna borrow from jess! heex. n. jesss, if its possible. hehex.. i so wanna borrow ur sewing machine. lu lala lala..

when there's a way, there will be a way. cause god will make a way. =]

wouldyoujazzwithmeat
3:07 PM

i'm feeling so kinda hyper now, wells, i'm happy.
but i'v a feeling that its at the mode in which's soon to be change for the e other extreme. jus like that day, i was so tired then to a little too hyper then to jus a node to collasping. hmmm.. no idea.
anyways..

what i wanted to actually say's that, hmmm.. u wanted an answer, but i jus totally ignored it, i didnt ans. cos,

- u gave me those on-off stuff, n so when u'r doin the on stuff, u jus expect me to run to u like a pup? i'm real sorry, i've learnt. get another pup dude.
- u think u can get an answer jus bcos u asked the question? what about those answers i've wanted? those questions? u ignored them, u ignored my presence.

think u havent gotten this, but.. i'm just not another one for u to fool. or maybe, as usual. u ignore everything except u, and urself. have fun.

last paper tomor! 0oh lala lala.

p.s. my mom pronounces peach as bitch. muahaha.

wouldyoujazzwithmeat
12:47 AM

I slept real early n long last night.
alrights. not that early but its considered early still.
and it feels great. nice.. sweet.
i was actually quite very tired during the paper.
i was jus staring at the questions, thinking," ya, familiar, did that before. but i dont feel like doing it now, i so wanna sleep." hahas.. wells, i did the questions at last, only to pause many times to wanting to sleep. hahas..
then went for job hunting with jess n stan, sat at tcc for a drink n chatted. hahahas..
stan n jess, the meaning of the words,
-sartorial
adj.

1. of or pertaining to clothing or style or manner of dress: sartorial splendor.
2. of or relating to a tailor, tailoring, or tailored clothing: sartorial elegance.

hahas.. i had so many many scary dreams, not nightmares, jus scary dreams for the past days. i think its the stress. hahas.. n last sun, i was told of how my ahmama panicked during my 1st day of school. hahas.. she's a real dear.
okies. till laters.
jiayou to all! last paper! jiayou!!

wouldyoujazzwithmeat
11:03 AM

-my hands r rough. sobs. once like that, now like that. hais.

-and i found out that he lied to me about his name. like wtf. for how many bloody years!? i'm starting to wonder whether those feelings, emotions, everything during those precious yrs. are those real?

-i found another of my childhood fren on friendster.

wouldyoujazzwithmeat
11:36 PM

sorry to those who, may feel neglected. really sorry for i'v been so busy with my on-off fever, coming papers, frens' prb, n mine.
i know no reasons or excuses can push my responsibility. but i jus wish for those who cared for me to know that, no matter how little our msgs or conversations r, u'r still constant-ly on my mind. =) n take care for the smokey air has been quite harmful to most these days. take care.

a question to all, u may post ur answers if u want by clicking on my comments link below the time of the entry posted.

"what do you think is/are the aim/aims of living in this world?"

wouldyoujazzwithmeat
12:45 AM

the two of you.
you guys wanted to be frens still. you wanted. so i was fine with it. now what is it? treating me like a stranger? like an enemy?
when you guys said, normal, jus like how we used to b. i did as u wanted. i'v adjusted to being normal, treating you the same, hopin n making myself to feel the same, learning and learnt to live n b normal .. you think i'm not a single bit affected? i'm, to a very much extend. but you guys wanted normal as before. damn you now.
treating me like humouring a stranger? n laughing at me like how you used to laugh at ur ex-gf?
i'm really sick of being the jokes to humour u guys. i've had enough, get this.

i'm so gonna stand up n b happy n enjoy the rest of my life![ without you!]! i aint gonna waste the rest of my precious time being upset, life's short to be wasted.
u guys can jolly well jus look on.

you may say i'm sore. u can say whatever u want. but as long as i know its not the truth.
thanks for the more knowledge u guys hav given to me. i'v learnt quite some already. bye.

wouldyoujazzwithmeat
12:15 AM

i had great fun with sher today at kbox. its great singing once again. hahas.. but often i sang outta tune. cos usually when i sing, i need some gestures to help me to keep in tune n with the tempo. so when sher mentioned sth abt it, i tried to stop moving so much. hahas.. resulted in me singing outta tempo by goin fast. hahas.. that's real funny.
but i had a fun day with her. only except somethings. nvm. not worth mentioning.
thanks sher for today! rest more larhs. (=

wouldyoujazzwithmeat
12:36 AM

wouldyoujazzwithmeat
8:51 AM

last night:
i love fireworks. who can dislike them? i mean they'r beautiful n all. but heys, confession, i was extremely scared of fireworks when i was young. u see, i got snubbed accidentally by a cigar when i was young. so i'm scared of of fire stuff. but who could possibly dislike them? hmmm... okies fine, my dad n ken.
i remembered mel once said that since i love fireworks so much, i should have them on my wedding. but singpore isnt gonna allow this, so she said, "have ur wedding on national day then." .. .. but yuccks! i hate the date 9 august. bleah.

this morning:
went to da temple. the uncle said i'm bad-tempered. ermm... by looking at my face. nice one. but that was funny. tickled me laughing all da way. hahahs..

wouldyoujazzwithmeat
9:54 AM

a pat from myself on my back. glad that i didn wait.

anyways. A n B
i have got a movie date with A on thurs. but i feel that i shouldn go. i know i would hav fun on that day, but i would inflict hurt on many others, n thus making making me regret on the next days. i know i will regret deeply.
i got another date with B, nth's goin to be wrong. except that i know i wont b happy having to forgo A jus to spend the day with B. i will be much happier spending the day with A. but i dont want to have regrets later. i know i will. but i still want, still want. hais.

sheralyn can u bring me outta my misery and have a kbox session on thurs? so i wont have to make choices?

wouldyoujazzwithmeat
11:24 AM

jus moved to this temporary house ytd. small, old, kinda scary, separated bathroom n toilet, no heater[ only cold water to bathe with], toilet bowl which my whole family jus cant seem to get used to. growls! i have to take bus to the interchange now! agrr..!!

wouldyoujazzwithmeat
1:26 AM

5 years ago I was:
13, started my secondary school. also the going-start of beautiful n painful memories

5 snacks I enjoy:
1. Chocolates
2. Potatos with tons of mayo
3. haw sheets
4. cuttlefish
5. lollipops!!

5 songs I know all the words to:
ermmm... i can only remember the words if i hear the music.

5 things I would do with 100 million dollars:
1. Buy a whole building and get all my aunts n family to stay under the same roof.
2. build a playground at the new place with swings!
3. buy new clothes
4. get all my love ones to a full body check-up
5. buy massage chairs for dearest dad and ahmama n ahma

5 places I would run away to:
1. ahmama's hsh
2. the playground
3. esplanade
4. the merlion's
5. japan

5 things I would never wear:
1. vintage clothes r ok, but not those UGLY ones[u should know what i mean]
2. high waisted jeans, but formal wear pants r alrights
3. guys' underwears, boxers r alright
4. not sure
5. not sure

5 bad habits:
1. stubborn
2. unable to be alone
3. too princess-y
4. no self-motivation to do important stuffs
5. slow in mostly everything

5 biggest joys:
1. family n friends
2. chocolates
3. cup of warm chocs
4. moon
5. swing

5 famous people I would date:
1. Gackt
2. Gackt
3. Gackt
4. Gackt
5. Gackt

5 people to do this quiz :
1. felicia
2. sheralyn
3. khairul
4. stanley
5. emily

wouldyoujazzwithmeat
12:56 AM

7 RANDOM FACTS ABOUT ME:
1) someone who hates n 's scared of being alone
2) someone who loves peace for deep thoughts
3) someone who loves those who love her
4) someone who hates n 's scared of insects
5) someone who loves food
6) someone who loves the moon and swing
7) someone loves n treasure all the memories of hers, as they'r what that made her her today.

7 THINGS THAT SCARE ME:
1) being alone
2) insects
3) betrayal and backstabbed, tattletales
4) bankrupt
5) losing my love ones.
6) my growling tummy[its always embarrassing me]
7) rapist[i'm not kidding]

7 RANDOM MUSIC AT THE MOMENT:
1) beep - pussycat dolls
2) i don't want to miss a thing - aerosmith
3) stick with you - pussycat dolls
4) gou gou shou - guo mei mei
5) zhen ming tian zi - alan n jolin
6) pon de replay - rihanna
7) buttons - pussycat dolls

7 THINGS I LIKE THE MOST:
1) food
2) memories
3) music
4) being around my friends
5) thinking much
6) my handphone
7) water

7 THINGS I SAY THE MOST:
1) yo yo check it out[deeply infuenced by sher]
2) fcuk you
3) arsehole
4) r u tryin to b funny or ver funny?
5) hahahhahahahahaha
6) don't like you larhs larhs larhs
7) hmmmm....

7 PEOPLE I WANNA SEE DO THIS:
1) stanley
2) sheralyn
3) felicia
4) emily
5) khairul
6) saufoo
7) yorkfeng

wouldyoujazzwithmeat
12:21 AM

u know, i've believed that closed friends who'v quarrelled or lost trust in e friendship could actually make up n try to b close again, but this time, from another entrance.
for example: jess n stan's case. rembr how we quarrelled n made up already?

so. yuppps.. i'm thinking of whether to make another friendship work again.

wouldyoujazzwithmeat
3:16 AM

my mom also said sth similar to what sam said.
so sth happened jus now, i'm not goin to say what, only the parties involved know, n including mel. but when or if any of you guys do find out. please ask me if u wanna know the reason why i did it, so, please do not make any wild assumptions.

i'm full from han's, but my dad packeted food for me, hais. supper but i'm so full!!

laters.

wouldyoujazzwithmeat
1:24 AM

i know i'm always acting like a spoilt brat. but really.., i've learnt to be a little better. so today when i was extremely angry at yuan for the tiniest, i got a shock. then i calmed myself down, acted like my normal self, but a little too fake and got irritated by somethings which shouldnt actually b much of a prb cos she's always like that, but i jus got irritated. anyways, i came home, cooled down with a shower. dad called to have dinner, i didn have the mood despite being hungry. so i revised for marketing, tasted blood in my mouth. but thr isnt any blood. took temperature, n tata, guessed right, had fever. that's reason for my short short temper-ness. fever still, but have to do my sem project. this is my brk. till laters.

wouldyoujazzwithmeat
11:52 PM

sorry stanley, everyone's not in the best of mood. but tanks for sending me home just now. dont know what i would do without u.
=) love you brother.

wouldyoujazzwithmeat
12:31 AM