Have I mention before of how much I LOVE my DEAREST DAD!?!?!??! He's simply the best of da best. If he weren't my dad, I would had married him! Hahas.. jkiddin.. but I truly hope for my future husband to have some of his GOOD characteristics. Hahas.. some, meaning that I don't wish for my future husband to be as lazy as him. Hahas..

Anyways, he cooked barley today, bought herbal tea yesterday. And on sun, I've got fever, I doubt he knows that, but he knows that I'm sick, so he cooked FISH PORRIDGE!!! Loving it! Muacks muacks. I love him simply to the max. DEAREST DADA!!

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So.. that day I went out with fish. N at last! At last! Someone knows how I actually felt, n made me realized of that's how I actually felt, and thus waken-ing up. (: thanks girl.

I m angry bcos I felt used by him, I felt lk a puppet.
I m upset bocs I felt jealous. I thot that he belongs to me only. Not as in relationship tied. I mean I felt that he could only be nice to me n no one else.
Examples::
- terrence was nice to me till mirri gotten close to them, n thus he bcoming nice to her[ I got jealous ] but luckily I've got jon!
- Gotten close to Stanley then in e end he was nice to mirri too[ I got jealous too ] ( that was last time) but anyways, that time I got jon n ken.
- Holiday, gotten close to shawn, then to finding out of his gf[ I got jealous ] I went mia
- Ken got a gf now[ I m jealous ]. But I got Stanley!! Rights stacy?? (:

So… I m really truly fine! (: n stop teasin me already! Hehex..

I like to conclude! I really appreciate those who put e smile on my face. I love you guys. <<3


**happiness is always shortlived.
so.. no matter how brief it is, try to make it at its happiest.

wouldyoujazzwithmeat
12:47 AM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EDGAR! stay happy always! (:

wouldyoujazzwithmeat
12:27 AM

when it's gone, it's gone.
when it's over, it's over.
the damage has been done, no matter how much effort you put in to salvage, it'll still never be the same,
as for the scars, they can only be lighten, but never gone.

wouldyoujazzwithmeat
12:11 PM

hmmm.. jus got back from e engagement party,
the food was alright, but the bee hoon was great! i meant REAL NICE!! cos its cooked by my dear ahmama. :)

anyways, it was torturous at 1st as i had to go to my "cousin"'s salon as i've got to hitch a ride from her to the place. e both of us = impossible impossible. thats how, hais.. family stuffs.. that's y. so she got to see her mom in so many yrs, n as ferr me, i've got to see my many many relatives!! i misss the 3 sisters! muahahas.. they were the ones who gave me my english name. its been so longgg...

it seemed like jus ytd that we were so close, n that i was pampered like **beep beep** by them!
i stayed over at their place, extended the stay. n cried like buckets n more when i've got to leave. hahas.. it seemed as if to the neighbours at that time that they were selling me away. hahas..

n the bad bad stuff of the night was that i cant smile sincerely, my smile seemed so fake! cos of the fcukling ulcer in the way! sobs.

but still, i ate tons. and hahas.. 1 of my god mama cant recognise me as i was at the back with my baby cousin n ryan aka wei qiang. she thot i was his gf. like wt.. hahas.. yess.. i do admit, our actions were tooooo.... ermmms... hahas.. anyways.. muahahas...

and there'r so many many pretty girls! cos the elder two sisters r air stewardess, therefore their friends are that pretty too!! yupps.. n i've gotten a knowledge from the 3 sisters that it isnt the looks that matter, its the inside beauty. yupps.. :)

** Absence makes the heart grows fonder,
true.. - but has this person been absent so long that u have forgotten y he or she was in ur life in the 1st place?
if the answer is YES, then it is time to move on.

however:: who's that person?

wouldyoujazzwithmeat
10:57 PM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR SHERALYN! MUACKS!

wouldyoujazzwithmeat
8:05 AM

the next time before you try to hurt someone. remember that he or she is someone else's sweetheart too, so that doesn't give you the right to hurt them. and in actual fact, you are hurting those people who cared for them too.

wouldyoujazzwithmeat
3:02 AM

dont ever go drinking when u do not even know your dammit limit. ya, get drunk and start sprouting nonsenses, and let others get the hurt u gave. thanks to you now. major thanks. i dislike you so much that i can give u a major slap across your fcukling face!!

lesson learnt:: do not ever. and i mean NEVER!! let a guy know too much about you! NEVER! DON'T even let him get close to you.

wouldyoujazzwithmeat
8:22 PM

when you've the chance but missed it, wells.. its just too bad for you. get on and away.``

anyways, went out with my dear ryan aka weiqiang yesterday. we said much and hope i did give grt advices to him.

bored now, wanted to watch home movie, but no one to accompany me. so i rented 2 vcds. but i only caught part 1 of the 2 shows. then i slept on the sofa. its so uncomfortable over thr but i slept anyways.

tmor, outing with beloved felicia lee yun wei! ong! i miss her like craps! cant wait till then.

laters.

wouldyoujazzwithmeat
5:52 AM

thinking alot when i have a single second to myself. getting back, going back? i don't know already. i don't know what i want. i am just like a hopping bobbing smiling zombie. i am feeling empty inside, empty as in i am bored. bored, just plain bored, and of life, and also bored of having to plaster a smile onto my lips too. i am looking for activites everyday to make me tired. this is just so like going back to sec2 days, and that isn't at all good.

laters.

wouldyoujazzwithmeat
9:30 AM

thank you for the presents. althou there isnt alot of things, but i m satisfied already. yupps. thank you.

now i m still short of meeting fish, qiang, n i so wish to see evan! agrr.. crazy misses.

laters.

wouldyoujazzwithmeat
8:10 AM

Hmmm… just got back from orchard. Yess… again.. orchard. Hahas.. went ard with jess n stan, n jess’s fren who has a perky arse. Hahas.. he’s a funny one. I had great fun with them, tearing from laughter. Hahas.. jokes from food to rats to toilet, from small to big, postitions, hahas.. everything.

And the funniest thing was that, I thot jess was jus joking when she said to choose my present then they will get it. I mean.. its like the 1st that I’m ever getting my present with, already knowing what it’s gonna b. hahas.. its weird, but I think its cool, cos I can get what I really wanted. Hahas..

Stanley n jess, I want e list of people so I can thank them personally. Hahas.. :)

I am happy, thanks.

wouldyoujazzwithmeat
11:39 PM

they just went home. hmmm.. hmmm.. so bored now. i dont like being alone. i wanna keep myself busy. but hais.. choon kiat got work. so they ended early.

wouldyoujazzwithmeat
5:28 PM

wells.. wells.. fine fine. mahjong at my house tomor. at least i let more ppl into my life already. muahahas.. have fun.

wouldyoujazzwithmeat
12:27 AM

taurus is stable, conservative and sensual. the sign values a comfortable, safe and unchanging environment and likes to hold on to the past.

taureans often have artistic skills. typically, they make good singers( taurus rules the throat), but they may also be potters, sculptors, or they may work with the earth in other ways.

wouldyoujazzwithmeat
10:02 PM

i am a bitch. yess, i am. whining when i i lose someone who cares for me. ha. bitch bitch. major.

but seriously, 2 in two months. and 5 in 4 months. what the hell. so many many things could happen in each second. so much changes, i just can't keep up.

i m having it now. so major emo. i m emotionally weak now. please, do not push me off the limit. i m standing on the red line already.


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wells. i hate the song now. it was what that made us made our 1st promises. now its all broken. cos he broke them 1st making me break the rest.
it played while i was msgin him, it played when i just got on my mom's car [early in the morning], it played when i was eating my dinner. again, again, and yet, again.

wouldyoujazzwithmeat
7:41 PM

i dont like guys who think that they know everything, and everything about you.
i dont like guys who say that they like your everything, including ur flaws, when they 1st know u or when they wanna be close to u or when they wanna know u. and then, in the end, only to say that u would be a more attractive person if u could change ur flaws. these guys r the most disgusting ones, they seem n r fakes.





**** keep away from me if u r like this!

wouldyoujazzwithmeat
8:33 PM

whoa. jus read kaiming's gf's blog. just 1 entry, and its good enough to bring me the major headache, and made me crossed-eyes. she's just a typical ah lian, the way she types.. whoa..
i meant.. i used to type like.. HeLLo.. [sth like that]. but hers r really too much, way too much already. hahas..

hmmm... anyways... what do i wanna blog about its that, i just read this one thing::
its hard to love someone who keeps making the same mistake over and over again, but try. its not ur job to judge them or to help them change, but urs to understand them.

hmmm... i've been thinking of this kinda things ferr quite some time already. but in conclusion, i'm just not that great yet,.. to be able to really love that one person if he's unable to change. i know it is very utterly selfish of me. but i've noticed that, i expected others to change ferr me, n not me ferr them.

and i've realised that, no matter how hard u want that person to change, he or she can never really change ferr its in their nature to be just like that, its all been rooted in them already. so what u'r supposed to do, it's not to change someone, but to find that someone that god has already made ferr u.

:)

wouldyoujazzwithmeat
8:40 PM